Happy Easter! 🐣🐰

Happy Easter from the Westons! 🐣🐰 -Elle (7.5), Trooper (4.5), & Magnolia (2)

Truman & I cracking up as he tries to put his compression socks over my crazy abnormally swollen pregnant feet

37 Weeks Prego with Willa

I am just over 37 pregnant, due April 30th! I get to meet my last little baby soon and excited to hold her in my arms. Each pregnancy has gotten harder and I'm looking forward to feeling like myself again. We talk about this being our #fourthandfinal 

My body hurts and I wake up at least 20 times a night due to back and carpal tunnel pain from pregnancy. I'm super grateful to have a healthy pregnancy though and we are all looking very forward to meeting this baby girl soon!

This quarantine has been very strange being away from everyone so I thought it would be good to post an update pic. I figure I better get at least a couple photos of me this pregnancy for posterity sake as well. 

I am using my amazing midwives again to do a home water birth, they just dropped off the tub today for my home visit and so it's all feeling very real! 

Dear Wilhelmina 💕 

What a time to be born! The Coronavirus has covered the Earth and stolen so many precious moments --Graduations. Prom. Weddings. Baby Showers. Church Missions. 
22 million Americans are without employment. I was laid off from my job as a dental hygienist on March 5th. Luckily, your Daddy is still working and working hard. There is a big feeling of uncertainty for everyone. Things change weekly and even daily at times. It almost feels as we are in an alternate reality. We live right next to cousins and grandparents and many friends but we are not supposed to see any of them as we practice "Social Distancing". There is a "Shelter in Place" order where all the schools in California and around the nation have closed for the rest of school year. All of Elle and Trooper's extracurricular activities have been canceled --gymnastics, jazz and hip hop classes, piano lessons, Elle's Love of Learning classes, sewing lessons with Grams, and Reading Hour with Gramps. Even church and all church activities has been canceled until further notice.  

We anxiously await your arrival as we finish Elle's 1st grade home schooling and spend lots of time at home. We are finding ways to keep busy by doing neighborhood walks, riding bikes and scooters on Berry Court, doing puzzles, bead pets, squirt guns, sidewalk chalk, science experiments, games, & more. I have been working on finishing home improvement projects during tax season to get our home ready to sell. There are so many pesky detail oriented things I have worked on --caulking, filling nail holes, painting baseboards, touch up painting rooms and all the cabinets and bead board, 5 trips for paint, re-painting the bathroom walls and ceiling, scrubbing doors and baseboards, sealing granite countertops, replacing hinges, spring and deep cleaning, dejunking and much more. My body has been very angry to be this pregnant and doing this many projects. This is the most acute and chronic pain I've ever felt in pregnancy. The last month of my pregnancy, your Daddy urged me to see the chiropractor twice a week and do therapeutic massage as well. It has been helping but sleeping has been very difficult. 

I think everyone is wrestled with many mixed emotions regarding the corona virus: fear, uncertainty, depression, anxiety, or anger. Your Daddy and I have talked about how grateful we are to have already made the decision to do a home birth with midwives. The hospitals are not where I want to be or want you to be right now. Many hospitals are not allowing and family or even husbands at the birth. My friend who just had her baby in the hospital had to wear a face mask in the hospital as she labored and birthed her new baby boy. Even my midwives have made it so I can no longer bring your older siblings to my prenatal appointments due to COVID-19. There are days that I feel anxiety about everything going around me and other days that I feel grateful that I was already taking a slow down in my life to get ready to have you. 

Prego

5 days before my due date with Magnolia 

Sunshine After the Storm

Yesterday I had my first miscarriage ever. 

I’m sure everyone feels this way, but it was just so unexpected. It was devastating to feel the early signs of one. I prayed all day that it wouldn’t happen. There were cramps and bleeding and lots of tears. I just kept hoping against hope and trying to convince myself that everything would be okay. For whatever reason, this pregnancy was not meant to be. We were both so saddened over it all, it felt crushing, something is being ripped away from you and there’s nothing you can do about it. Truman came home earlier and sat at the edge of the sofa in front of me and we hugged and cried together. Tears for the loss of a baby we thought we would meet and the love that we alreasy felt for a third baby to join our family. Truman tried to cheer me up and go get Costa Vida to cheer me up, but it was all just too hard. He took the kids to his Mom’s house while I had my miscarriage. But called my friend Crystal who I knew had also had one and she comforted me on the phone.

 I was 9 weeks 5 days pregnant & felt I was getting into the safe zone and I had just started telling our family the week prior. 

I feel so much peace from this artwork  — it felt like a tender mercy because it was the cover of the Ensign for that month. This artwork speaks to my heart because of that ancestors in heaven reaching down buoying you up, and putting their loving hands on your shoulders to let you know it will be okay and they know what you’re going through. 

I also find peace and comfort in this quote about looking toward the sun. I know my family will grow again one day, just not now. 

I find solace and love and hope and happiness in these two children I get to take care of. I’m grateful I have them and hold them and pour my heart into them. Everyone heals in different ways. Yesterday I cried my eyes out. Today, it made me feel better to take them out on a donut today and play at the park. Doing something for them, watching them play, feeling the sunshine, & the fresh air was what I needed to heal. 

Baby Watermelon! Green OR Pink - What Do You Think? IT'S A....

We thought it would be fun to do a Watermelon themed Gender Reveal Party for this upcoming Baby #2!

I made these lime green and hot pink circle garlands with a 2" circle punch and then ran them through the sewing machine with about an inch between circles. I made the Watermelons with the same cardstock by just cutting out watermelon and rhine and then used black hole punched paper for the seeds and then glued them all together. 

I also hot glued pins on the back of these circles on the chalkboard --everyone had to vote and wear it! 

Green or Pink - What Do You Think?!

Ultrasound pictures from my appointment yesterday (minus the gender pictures which were sealed in an envelope the day of!)

 This little munchkin kept following me around as I was taking pictures of the decorations saying, "Cheeeeese!". I would take a picture of her, then she would say "Cake please!". Haha, I guess she got used to me bribing her with cake yesterday to do our photoshoot. And yes... I gave her some more cake...
How could you deny that face?!

 The party table complete with lemon-lime and cherry 7 Up and all manner of pink and green decorations!

 Pink & Green

Green & Pink

 Garlands framing the entrance to the kitchen -- Elle loved to run through them and say, "I'm so pretty!!!"

Front door streamers and balloons and the cute photo bomber

My sister Tara & me and her little twin boys in the background.
I am 19.5 weeks pregnant!

This is the best picture I could get of Elle at the party, haha --she voted pink!

 Jake, Spencer/Dad, Rich "Papa", my Dad, and my Mom

-VOTED PINK-

Truman, Amy, Tara, Aven, Quin, Pete, Peggy, Hayley

-VOTED GREEN-

...And for the rest of our family who sent me their votes that live too far away to come or were away!

The mystery gender reveal cake!!!

Funfetti cake with white frosting...

...filled with either green or pink m&m's!

Now the moment we were ALL waiting for!!!

 We made two cuts but couldn't see anything until we picked up the big piece of cake and moved it out!

 Truman & I both voted green & were right!
I love how you can see Tara in the mirror in this picture too excited because she voted right as well!

 GREEN!!! 

IT'S A BOY!!!

 People are always telling me how much Elle & I look alike! I can't wait to see if this baby boy looks like my cute husband Truman! Look at this little boy!

We are so excited and knowing we are having a baby boy makes it feel all the more real!!!
Now onto picking a name for sure...